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Wednesday, August 6, 2014

assalamualaikumm :)

dah lama blog ni dibiarkan bersawang n berkurun x dicuci.. so now its time for me to 'cuci' beliau dengan cerita ceritun sepanjang kehilangan aku dari dunia blog. (dah macam MH370 plak)

aku kini dah berjaya menghabiskan riwayat praktikal dengan jayanya walaupon banyak gila cubaan n dugaan yang aku terpaksa alami n lalui sengsorang.. semuanya bermain dengan mental. hampir nak gila.. sakit ati...sedih.. semualah ! tapi alhamdulillah Allah tidak menguji hambaNya melebihi kemampuan. 

aku dah penat untuk menegakkan benang yang basah dan akhirnya aku undur diri secara perlahan lahan tanpa sebarang berita. diam sehinggakan tiada sebarang khabar yang perlu aku hebohkan. dan tiada juga sebarang perkhabaran untuk aku.. how was my practical life.. how was my day.. how are you feel right now.. do you have any problem or not.. not even one of that questions come out from "that" mouth. aku cuba untuk buang gambar "kaki" kat atas tu tp xreti la pulak.. haha. :P

aku xmencari ego seseorang.. tapi aku mencari kebahagiaan.. orang yang dapat memberikan kebahagiaan kepada aku itulah yang aku akan pilih.. everything needs give and take. if not, your relationship will not stay forever. i hope that i find one. the one that can protect me..loves me..can always be by my side whenever I need them. aku dah xperlukan orang yg sentiasa cuba untuk memberikan 1001 alasan untuk mengelak dari terus bersama aku. jangan cuma ada dimasa senang.. tapi di kala susah, segala ego, amarah akhirnya keluar dari dalam diri.. 

we've been through all of this for years.. but we still didnt know each others very well. so now i'll let you free..you can choose your own way and i choose mine.. you said you wanna be free, enjoyed all the time with your buddies.. so yeayh.. i'll give you everything now. hope you can enjoy with everything that you really want. me also wanna be happy. but my happiness are not with you.. i need to move on and try to find my happiness.

and now, i am the happiest person ever ! aku dah berjaya keluar dari zon "bahaya" and found my comfort zone. alhamdulillah and thanks to Allah Almighty because He still gave me this opportunity to get this way in my life. keep on praying to Him so that i can proceed to the next stage of happiness.. the biggest happiness is waiting for me. i've been too loyal to the wrong person for years.. so now i need to give my loyalties to the person that can give me all sorts of things that i need in my life.. Insyaallah.. 

I love you because of Allah.. :)